About Dr. Roshan Madhavjee 

" Roshan means light, I am passionate about bringing light into people's lives." – Roshan

In this year of Awakening 2012, I  am reviewing my years of life on this planet—and in retrospect, I recall having mainly two emotions: lots of fear and a complete lack of joy.

I have been there and know what it feels like being overwhelmed and sad.

 

There are only two emotions-LOVE/JOY and FEAR; THE REST ARE DERIVATIVES.

I had fears about everything – fear of failure, fear of success, fear of what others thought, fear of how I looked, the list went on and on. There was minimal joy in everything for me. I was quiet, withdrawn, moody, and in my own unhappy world. However, I did not express this, and showed a “happy” or normal face. I thought they were all better than me in so many ways. 

As life went on I was amongst people yet lonely; my spirit was broken. I contemplated suicide.

About 15 years ago, I found myself resigned to my situation in life, tired of my daily routine, not very fulfilled and feeling like I had no control of my destiny. I felt “LOST” and likely experienced many of the problems many experience today. I was depressed, lonely, felt  abandoned and emotionally challenged.

 

For a long period in my life I felt I was drowning in quick deep sand. The pressure was mounting beyond what I felt I could handle thinking to myself that I do not have the strength to carry on. I would get through one major obstacle or illness only to find another one waiting for me in the moment I finally caught my breath. Sometimes we endure one loss after another, wondering when we will get a break from life’s travails. It does not seem fair or right that life should demand more of us when we feel we have given all we can. Sometimes this is the way life works, these obstacles often are bringing us closer to our life purpose. It takes something major to wake us up, to shake us loose from our ego’s grip as it struggles to maintain an illusion of control.

Transformation or Alchemy was needed. My soul was reaching out and transforming what is unwanted to what is wanted. My life was stuck in unwanted recurring experiences and I needed to start a journey of Healing from dis-ease (coiled energy) to ease (free flowing harmonious energy). At that stage of pain, it had grown so much that I was in a daze and could not face huge blockages. On this journey I was living with the by-products of pain, namely self-pity, blaming, living in a victim modality, vengeance, looking for sympathy. I have been there and therefore understand you.

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I have also realized that my problems and issues, though seemingly only physical, were also emotional, psychological, physical or spiritual are the result of unresolved past unprocessed emotional traumas, which in turn, led to dysfunctional perceptions, beliefs and behavior patterns. These in turn affected my soul agreements. I made the soul agreement to learn my life lessons and therefore I chose to be treated without respect, to suffer abuse and put myself as a last priority. I made the soul agreement to suffer emotional trauma and hold onto the past. These unresolved soul agreements of the past creep into new soul agreements of the present which then manifests into depression, anxiety and stress. 

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In l999/ 2000, whilst going through the “worst” moment of my physical ailment, and while meditating, I had my ‘aha’ moment. I experienced joy (happiness/bliss) so deeply that I felt warm and tingly all over. This was an emotion which I had experienced for the first time in my life – words cannot describe it. Nothing had changed externally; I had to resolve many issues; however that ray of light was unmistakable and a true joy was being experienced. Accompanying the emotion was a very vivid thought that “I am being healed spiritually” and that is how I had found the answer.This profound experience had a dramatic impact on my life. I immediately began to work on myself. Praying (when I talked to the Universe)  and Meditation(when I listened to the Universe) became a big part of my life. I started the process of forgiving myself! And, what is more important is that I forgave everyone else in my life too. I started to “feel” the answers to my questions – I just needed to learn to “listen” and interpret better. I studied, tested and practiced “A Course in Miracles” amongst many other methods of energy healing. 

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What really helped was my intuition telling me about my Soul Agreements. How did I figure out all my blockages and what changed my entire perception?   I now believed that Individuals who previously I saw as enemies were my actual teachers in this incarnation and they were there because of my pre-birth invitation.  There was a relief that there are no enemies, just teachers.Before birth, I wrote a script for my life on earth, establishing my next lifetime’s goals and objectives. There's a big difference between soul purpose and life purpose. The soul usually unfolds in stages that can last several lifetimes. You could call each stage the Soul's "current mission." Your life purpose, on the other hand, comprises of goals to learn life lessons specifically in the current with the intent of furthering your Soul's current mission.

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When the Soul, sits down to lay out the life lessons to be accomplished in the next life, the soul has many soul  who have taken birth at the same time in many or some lifetimes with your soul and therefore are qualified and willing to join you this time in preparing a detailed agenda setting out encounters with those souls  who will help you or CHALLENGE you and themselves to learn the life lessons as set out on the agenda.  Your soul plans with them when and where the meetings will take place, including obstacle courses and synchronicities to give that buzz to your life course.  These souls take the role of a parent, friend, family, lover, enemy, friend turned enemy, Guide, teacher and so on in this incarnation.  Souls even choose to have the diseases, be it Cancer, Aids etc to learn certain specific lessons which the Soul requires.

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In retrospect, as I go through my life events, I note that I each of my major turns in life and every one of our important relationships has a Soul Agreement. There are a number of ways to recognize the existence of a Soul Agreement in a relationship, although the specific parameters of the agreement aren't always so easy to pinpoint. Always, the relationships are intense and full of meaning. Usually, when you meet there's a sense of recognition that is irresistible, and that can be misinterpreted by your personality or ego, especially when the possibility for romance exists. Often the relationship has built-in challenges or obstacles that require effort and commitment to overcome. Conversely, it can be so easy in the beginning that when obstacles do appear, it's shocking, and can cause the relationship to collapse. Hence we meet people for a reason, for a season, or lifetime.

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Say for instance, what if the friend, or even your child or parent or sibling caused the most trauma and pain in your life at various stages,  is actually a “soul” friend from prior lifetimes, one who agreed to take on the unpleasant task of helping you to learn your lesson and to build your emotional and spiritual strength through challenge? Or to help you to balance karma by learning to treat them, in all their awfulness, with forgiveness and unconditional love?  At times two individual souls may decide to meet in various life times as lovers but not able to live happily thereafter.  Maybe this will help each to work on their faith, trust in the long-term satisfying relationship and learn to give and receive unconditional love and tolerance and not rely on personal satisfaction only.

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It's not always easy to decipher the divinity and intention of soul agreements easily, especially when one goes through a lot of pain and heartache, not knowing what you have done to deserve this in this life time.  Mediation, your Angels and Spirit Guides are a tremendous help to know yourself and feel the peace, and it will resonate with the soul and understand what the Soul wishes to learn from “this experience”.   Many a times when some drama is presented into my life now I automatically ask myself, “What am I learning from this experience” rather than blaming the other party.   As soon as I began to look at each of the relationship, especially the challenging ones, I started feeling deep in my core the new way to look at life’s issues, and thus things became less personal and all that “drama” which used to accompany with my personal conflicts were not there, as I was seeing my challenger as my appointed teacher to teach me a lesson and not as a so called opponent or enemy. My Soul had this incident in the script for me to learn certain stuff.  My duty was to be aware of what I was to learn as unless I finish the learning, the same issue will be presented to me in a harder lesson until I learn.   This feeling gave me wings, the process of metamorphosis from caterpillar to butterfly.  Things have become less personal and I have no one to blame; no one is my enemy.  Learn my lesson and move on!

 

Now my Mission in Life is to make a difference on this planet in this incarnation to assist individuals to raise their frequency higher and bring them into a JOY state, and offer Love, Light, Service.  I have taken small steps at a time towards my Goal.